It's 20 past two in the morning and I've decided to start work on this post about eyes.
There are two main reasons for this: 1. I don't want to have to write something in 10 minutes on Sunday night to meet my weekly quota and 2. I have a feeling this post will be rather low quality, so by posting it at a ridiculous time in the morning I reduce the chance of anyone actually reading it. But obviously you are. Which makes you a little awkward. You know this post really won't be worth reading, it's just going to be the dull ramblings of a sleepless guy, with no form or structure? I mean perhaps you could skip this post. What would you lose? If you read it you'll probably just think less of my blog.But you're still reading. I should mention it is now 10 to 3 (I get distracted quite easily) so this will be even lower quality than I originally intended. In fact it is perfectly possible that I will fall asleep on the keyboard and the remainder of the post becomes a series of m's.
Anyway, as I've already mentioned this post is about eyes. People with autism typically have difficulties with eye contact and I tend to avoid it with people I don't know very well. However I believe eye contact can be a very useful, powerful or emotional form of communication. I also find the eye to be the single most beautiful part of the body and I have been obsessed (not literally obsessed I should point out. Having to point out what's literal and not is a hallmark of having autistic readers) with them for years (is it really difficult to read sentences broken up with long bracketed messages?) and this can be seen by the fact that drawings of them adorn (how often do you get to use the word adorn?) my maths books. The unspoken connection can allow a flow of mutual emotion across a crowded room. The subtle twitch of an eyelid can unwillingly express more of a persons innermost thoughts than many hours of talking can.
Of course the innermost thought of most people I have this connection with is "Why is that weird kid staring at me?"
It is now quarter to 4 and I really should go to bed before sunrise. Once again I apologise for the post. Remember, I'm doing a post a week and we're only a quarter of the way through the year. If I don't get some ideas soon I'll resort to posting about toe-nails or something.
3 comments:
I'm not autistic, but I went through a phase during my teens when I really, really struggled to make eye contact with people. It was something that seemed to stem from fear, and not knowing when it was appropriate to make eye contact. I have since got over this.
Very interesting post. I agree with what you say about eye contact being very useful
Just a question - how can you not be literally obsessed - you either are or you aren't (or am I missing something here). I think what you don't realise is that the first half of the post was more interesting but you let it down by not continuing your ramble (I was expecting a long trailing post of nothingness but instead got a short succinct explanation of something). More ramblings please (and make it a proper rambling - I know you can).
A literal obsession starts to take over a large part of your life, whereas I am merely very interested in them.
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